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Conquer the Darkness

I'm running down a dark road, not a house or a person in sight. The only light I see is a dim light a head of me and I'm trying to get to it but the closer I get, the further away it goes. I don't know what is creating the light and I don't know why I'm desperate to catch it and come to think of it, I don't even know where I am but I must reach it. The faster I run, the more desperate I become then suddenly, I become fearful. I feel a tight knot in my stomach and a deep feeling of nervousness and fear. But why? I look behind me. All I see is darkness. All I see is just a black haze of nothingness but it seems to grow closer. I can't let it consume me. I can't let it catch up to me. I must keep running.

So I run faster and faster, hearing something chasing me now but I don't dare look back. I just need to get to that light. The light feels safe. It feels like once I reach it everything will be okay. But the entity behind me is getting faster. It is catching up. The closer it gets, the more frightened I become. I can actually hear it now, whispering and chuckling, breathing right in my ear. I try and ignore it but it just gets louder until its a single dark voice, screaming at me, showering me with threats and fear. I run faster, faster than ever before. The light has stopped trying to escape me and has remained still, allowing me to run into its welcoming embrace. I'm almost there. I'm so close. I can see it right in front of me. Just a bit further. Just a bit....

Then I trip over something and fall. I go crashing to the cold, hard ground bellow me, gasping and whimpering in fear. The creature from the shadows is right there, standing over me, leering. I close my eyes. I can't look. All I can do is tense up and wait. It's got me now. I'm at it's mercy. There's nothing I can do and no one around to save me. Or at least...so I believe...until a hand comes towards me. A hand reaching out from the light. I hesitate and grip it tight and I'm brought back to my feet. Slowly I'm pulled into the light and the darkness behind me starts to fade, the creature making a hasty retreat. I no longer feel the fear I had. I feel warm. I feel safe. I feel happy. All of these feeling increase when suddenly I feel myself being wrapped into someone's arms and held tight against them in a strong, protective embrace. I just stand there, relaxed, believing that everything will be okay. Then I glance up, wanting to see the mysterious one who saved me from the darkness that tried to get me. I stare up into their face and I recognise all distinguished features.

The snow white face. The black rimmed eyes. The red carved smile. The white hoodie. He smiles down at me, not a sadistic grin or evil smirk, but a warm smile that makes my heart race. I just want this moment to last forever and ever. But eventually everything begins to fade....


And I wake up, but this time I'm not sitting bolt right sweating and panting and terrified as usual. This time I wake up with an actual smile on my face and I actually feel amazing. It's 4 in the morning and I'm not tired and irritated, or shaking and terrified, but I'm so happy. That dream was just everything to me. I'm actually able to put all the negativity aside and I don't care about my demons. My demons are nothing. I left my demons in the dark. And my hero from the light saved me. He pulled me free from them. My hero. Jeff. Jeff is my light.

And right now, everything feels like it might be okay.

That is, until I hear a blood curling scream coming from right outside my window, and suddenly my own blood turns cold...
One Last Nightmare Chapter 7
Not the longest of chapters but I wanna get to the good bits :P XD I hope you like this one anyway!

Hmm...blood curling screams in the middle of the night aint a good sign o_O looks like shit may be about to get real! X3

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Sorry for the inactivity lately with my story, commenting on people's work and talking to people on here. The past few weeks have been pretty stressful and there's been loads on my mind so I've never really had the energy or effort to come online or write a new chapter. It's more or less been a case of eat, work and sleep. But most of the stress is gone as everything has finally been sorted and passed and, regarding a few worrying/dark thoughts still lingering in my mind, I'm starting to feel a lot more calm and more willing to start writing again! :D

On a positive note: I'm definitely going back to College in September. That's what about 70% of my stress has been about actually :o (Eek) I had my College interview last Thursday which I was totally nervous about. Then my Anxiety started playing up again trying to make me second guess College and doubt myself and trying to tell me it's a waste of time. And then I was stressed about telling my manager at work about College because I thought it would go badly since I'm dropping hours. BUT, yesterday I got the letter telling me I was accepted to the course! NC Early Education & Childcare, here I come! Wink/Razz 7th September is my start date :D (Big Grin)  I'm so excited about all that, I've been keeping my Anxiety and self doubt aside for now at least, so I'm already feeling loads better! And then tonight I finally told my manager and she was actually okay with it! So I never got yelled at and/or killed Giggle 

So dealing with all that, plus as I said a few other things I'm not gonna bother getting into, it's been a stressful time but a lot of it is over now and the rest I'll just have to try and deal with my own way (probably through writing or working on my Recovery Sketchbook) and I will start back on my story again very soon. Sorry to anyone waiting for the next chapter! Just bare with me please Meow :3 

Have a nice day, all!
  • Listening to: Scary stories being told
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Horror Youtube channels
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Dairy Milk
  • Drinking: Water
Let's Pretend

Have you ever had to sit still, act casual and basically ignore the fact  there are raging voices in your head? It's not the most pleasant experience in the world. Even the voice that gives encouragement and comfort startles me and makes me jump every time I hear it. It gets difficult trying to maintain my composure, especially when I'm around people and I have threats and/or advice randomly appearing as unfamiliar voices swimming through my brain. It's not even like a frightening voice or thought that I conjur up every so often. They are legit voices booming so loudly, I often look around to see if other people can hear them too.

It's not like it has just started. To be perfectly honest, they've been around for ages. I guess I ignored them but back then they were easier to ignore. I always thought it was my own guilt causing these hallucinations and I figured it would have all fizzled out in time. My guilt has subsided, but the inner demons have only raged on and there seems to be no end in sight just yet. And the thing is, the worse it's becoming, the harder it is to hide.

Take the other night for instance when I was sitting with my parents and my sister who was visiting. I remember being suddenly sucked into an intense flashback. Back to when I was in that abandoned place with Yuna, standing with Jeff and watching her burn in those flames. Remembering that smile I had and that small, sick feeling of amusement as I saw her die. It was so real, as if I were watching it all happen right in front of my eyes there and then, in the middle of my own living room. It apparently took several attempts before my family finally managed to snap me out of my deep daydream.

"Are you okay, Laura?"

"Is something wrong? You look scared."

"And you're really pale."

3 concerned faces peering at me, inspecting me closely. I can usually hide my emotions well but I know I must have looked really shaken up. But of course I could never tell them what was going on so with a brave face I smiled and insisted everything was okay. I know they didn't fully believe me.

I don't know about my sister as she doesn't live with us, but I know my parents have an idea something is up with me. Obviously they have zero clue about what has happened the past couple of years. What I've got involved with, who's lives I've ended, the scary situations I've been in. (At least I HOPE they don't know.) But they must know and have seen how much I have changed. I know I've changed. Since meeting Jeff and the crazy adventures we've been on, I'm a completely different person to what I was like before all of that. I have always wondered what would happen if my family did know everything. Of course they probably wouldn't believe me at first, or at all, but if they did and even went as far as to meeting Jeff face to face, I wonder how it would go.

Ha. I doubt it would be one of the most pleasant of experiences anyway. We'd either all end up dead or in prison. Or a mental asylum the way I'm going.

No, no. I'm not crazy. I mean I'm not insane, especially nothing like Jeff. Though looking at what I'm currently going through right now. The voices, the hallucinations. All of that is probably nothing compared to what goes on in Jeff's mind. I'd love to know exactly what goes on in it sometimes. He's used to the insanity though. I'm not. Well, as I said, I'm not insane, but obviously what's going on isn't normal and it's already scary enough. It can't get any worse though, right? It can't get scarier. I'm used to nightmares, even the most grotesque, violent, realistic ones. Those are nothing to me nowadays.

But my worry now is my parents. I said before, they have an idea something is up. They may not say anything to me yet about it but I know they'll be observing me closely and muttering to each other about me. I'll need to try and keep all of this at bay and try and keep myself as lively and ordinary as I can. Whenever I hear a voice, block it out. Whenever I see something disturbing, look in the opposite direction. Anything that won't look suspicious. I can try and act like nothing is wrong. I can pretend to myself, my parents and to the world that everything is okay.

But for how long?
Sometimes I just want to run away and escape reality for a while. Even for a day it would be nice not to feel lonely or ugly or let any of the inner demons get to me. Just for a day I'd love to remember how it feels to be properly happy, no worries, no regrets and no longing for people who suddenly disappear from my life. Just for a moment, I want to truly believe that everything will be okay and that people do still care.


F*ck you, Anxiety & Depression... :minigun: Anxiety - NaNo18 Gloomy 


(*sorry for the depressing entry*)
  • Listening to: TV
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: PS3
  • Playing: Tomb Raider
  • Eating: Apple Slices
  • Drinking: Water

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Call me "Laul" :)
United Kingdom
Name: Laura
But call me: Laul or Lala :3 (My 2 known nicknames xD )
Age: 21
Birthday: 9th September
Star Sign: Virgo
Birthstone: Sapphire
Eyes: Blue
Hair: Short, "Pixie" cut, purple-red
Pierced: Earlobes, bottom lip, tongue
Nationality: Scottish

Sonic the Hedgehog and Creepypasta fan to the MAX!

10 Facts About Me

1. I've loved Sonic ever since I was 7
2. I'm Pansexual
3. If I didn't have video games, music and art then I think I'd lose the will to live!
4. I'm very tomboy and slightly gothic too
5. My biggest hates are Sushi, Wasps and My Little Pony
6. I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD)
7. I'm a huge fan of horror films - My top 3 are Ouija, The Conjuring and Insidious
8. I'm a huge believer in ghosts, spirits and demons. I'd love to be a paranormal investigator or ghost hunter
9. I've been writing songs ever since I was 14
10. I'll NEVER grow up ;)
Interests
Sorry for the inactivity lately with my story, commenting on people's work and talking to people on here. The past few weeks have been pretty stressful and there's been loads on my mind so I've never really had the energy or effort to come online or write a new chapter. It's more or less been a case of eat, work and sleep. But most of the stress is gone as everything has finally been sorted and passed and, regarding a few worrying/dark thoughts still lingering in my mind, I'm starting to feel a lot more calm and more willing to start writing again! :D

On a positive note: I'm definitely going back to College in September. That's what about 70% of my stress has been about actually :o (Eek) I had my College interview last Thursday which I was totally nervous about. Then my Anxiety started playing up again trying to make me second guess College and doubt myself and trying to tell me it's a waste of time. And then I was stressed about telling my manager at work about College because I thought it would go badly since I'm dropping hours. BUT, yesterday I got the letter telling me I was accepted to the course! NC Early Education & Childcare, here I come! Wink/Razz 7th September is my start date :D (Big Grin)  I'm so excited about all that, I've been keeping my Anxiety and self doubt aside for now at least, so I'm already feeling loads better! And then tonight I finally told my manager and she was actually okay with it! So I never got yelled at and/or killed Giggle 

So dealing with all that, plus as I said a few other things I'm not gonna bother getting into, it's been a stressful time but a lot of it is over now and the rest I'll just have to try and deal with my own way (probably through writing or working on my Recovery Sketchbook) and I will start back on my story again very soon. Sorry to anyone waiting for the next chapter! Just bare with me please Meow :3 

Have a nice day, all!
  • Listening to: Scary stories being told
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Horror Youtube channels
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Dairy Milk
  • Drinking: Water

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Tatiyana556987 Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2016  New Deviant
hey i need to talk to you
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Tatiyana556987 Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2016  New Deviant
oh my god we have so much in common but mostly sonic what is your favourite charicter to 
a. scourge
b.silver.
c.sonic 
mine is scourge:) (Smile) :) (Smile) :) (Smile) :) (Smile) :) (Smile) :) (Smile) scourge dance Sonic Shrug Emote Silver Emoticon #7 
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littleangellaura1 Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2016
It has to be between Scourge and Sonic! I like Silver but Scourge and Sonic are awesome, but I actually love Shadow the best :p
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Tatiyana556987 Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2016  New Deviant
yeah me too but i like scourge more like shadow
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littleangellaura1 Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2016
Theyre both cool :p
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Tatiyana556987 Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2016  New Deviant
Waaaah! Waaaah! Waaaah! Waaaah! Waaaah! Waaaah! 
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littleangellaura1 Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2016
:O *hug* breeaathhheeeee :O
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Tatiyana556987 Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2016  New Deviant
OK *BREATHES*
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akrasiel Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2016   General Artist

Thanks for watching me, Laul! :iconsheeplaplz:

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littleangellaura1 Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2016
You're welcome! Your work is great :D
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